It's been a while since I last time wrote. Again...
So, I thought I could do it now. So. I took my nipple piercings. The actually piercing didn't hurt that much, but my nipples have been a little sore last few days. :-P But I like them really much.

And this last weekend went really well. I think I havn't had as good weekend in a looong looong time.

Ps. ♥ :)

Getting my nipples pierced tomorrow, oh I'm so excited. Atlast! :)

Hmm. I'm tired.
And I've been sick again. Sucks.

What. The. Fuck.
Oh. My. God.
What. The. Hell.

I don't get this. But I think this is a good thing?

Voita In Flames -tapaaminen + VIP-liput

Voita In Flames -tapaaminen + VIP-liput
Everyone, go there and do as the site tells you to !

Going nuuuuuuuuuuuts <3

Oh my gosh. ;-)
 

And here's a song again! Enjoy.

What a nice day it has been. ;)

What a mess. Nothing else to say tonight. ;D

And once again, I watched one of my favourite series, The L Word! And once again, I fell in love with it. I watched the last episode of season 6, it's so sad. I cried so much at the end. But still, it's so great. I just totally love it.

I also visited Emilia's place today, again...! We'll, what you gonna do, when you're so good friends with someone? We always have lots and lots of fun. We played Buzz again.

Tomorrow, I'm probably going to see my friend Talvikki. Hope the weather isn't going to be as bad as it is now; rain and wind.

Now, sleepy time! Almost..

It's been a nice weekend. Friends, alcohol and nice time.

And today I'm redying my hair. Back to the beautiful black.

Holidaaaay! It feels so good.

But time to run. Helsinki is calling for me. :-)

How did this get so hard?

It's gonna be holiday next week, and I have absolutely nothing to do.. Yaaay... Guess I gotta make up something.

Sometimes I hurt so bad I don't know what to say.

Let's say 5th & 6th day with Emilia. ♥ Hehehe.

It's been months, but I still do miss you sometimes. Where did we go wrong? I just don't get it...

What a strange monday it has been...

This weekend has been so good! On friday, I went to Ghost Brigades gig, it was sooo good. One of the best gigs I've been to.

Friday, yesterday was also good. Partying and great people.

Aand today, I've slept over 14 hours... And I'm still tired. :-P

Let's say, Ghost Brigade tomorrow! Woo! Can't wait. :-) So excited.
Also, Sara is going to visit my place tomorrow, my sister is going to dye her hair. And maybe mine too..? Not sure yet. (Redying my black.)

And saturday, WE SHALL PARTY.

This band is fucking genious perfection.

Emilia was here. ♥ We had so much fun. :-)

Sorry! It's been a while from last post, again! But I've been in a kind of hurry few last days.

Weekend was really good. Had great, great time with my friends. Party, hanging out and all kind of cool stuff, ya know.

But few last days, awwwh. They're been so, so good! I've been talking to this nice guy. :>

That's enough for now. I don't want to tell it all, 'cause it's private. But I'm doing fine at the moment!

Again, I have forgotten to blog about my last few days, so here we go.

Monday: We had a class trip! We went to see ostriches, to this place called Heureka (A place in Finland where is a lot of stuff about science etc.) , eat and to the movies. (I personally didn't like the movie that much. It was called Pussikalja elokuva.) The day was great, one of the best ones in a long time. We had so much fun while eating, we just laughed at everything, mostly stupid things, but god damn we had fun! Also, I liked the bus trips, even if I was little quiet and sad, but I enjoyed them. Especially when few of the people were singing. I like that.

Tuesday: Nothing important.



Today: Nothing important either. Except in school, there was only me and Sara from our class. So, there was just the two of us. But I liked it. We had very good conversations about bullying, difference and relationships, and people in general.

I still love you. I. Still. Fucking. Love. You.

It has been few days again! Surprise, been sick, so I havn't had the motivation to post anything. I've made new really good friends in my new school, which is really cool I think. This weekend I'm mostly home, sucks... But going to my friend tonight. Atleast I won't be home whole weekend! :-)

But! Most important, I CUT MY HAIR ATLAST! There is possibility I will post a picture later, but not sure yet. And I also need to take a picture! I'm very pleased with this new short style. No more emo for me. :-D

Anyway. Guess I should do something. Like try to get a good picture!

This was one great weekend! The party went really well, except there was this little "scene" .. But still, the party was good!

And on staurday, in bus, we met this one cool guy. He heard us talking all random stuff, and I'm really surprised he actually started even speaking to us. (He asked us if he had any smokes.) Anyway. We hanged out with him for like 2-3 hours. Then he went to see his friends, and me and my friend Emilia, went to the busstation with our other friends, as they were planning on leaving. So, they left. And me and Emilia we went to see our other friends in Helsinki. We did find them, but we got a little bored, as we were also tired. So we called this guy we had met in the bus, and whom with we had wandered around and hanged out. We had to wait a little for him, so we went to this pizzeria. We ate one big pizza, which was really good. So, later we went to see this guy, and he was in this park with few of his friends. They were really cool and nice people also! We hanged out with them for over an hour I think. I had really, really good time! Later when they decided to move to the bar, me and Emilia went to our friend, for another night. As the party had been there last night. We both were really tired so we fell asleep fast in the night. (Also when we jumped out of the bus, we screamed and growled on the streets like crazy. I wonder what poeple thought about us, if someone heard us.)

This sunday, was really relaxed. We woke up, talked, went to the shop, ate, hanged out, and decided to leave. So now I'm home, still tired, alone, thinking about what should I do. But I really enjoy this silent, relaxed house.

So, this was my weekend! I had loads of fun, and met new people. What else could you wish for? Tomorrow school, sigh, got to wake up early again.

Still sick a little. This sucks so bad. Anyways, tomorrow we shall party!

I still do miss you.

First day at school. Wasn't too bad. I think I'll fit in, and have good time there.

Still sick, don't know if I'll go to school tomorrow. We'll see..

Been sick, having flu and cough. Sucks, as my school starts tomorrow also, and I really have to go there. Also having so many papers which I have to fill. Information, information and information. Also useless information about me. But blah, got to do it.

Also I visited my friend today! We had loads of fun. We talked while drinking to apple juice. We listened to music, watched funny videos, and we also watched Totally Spies movie. (It was kind of random.) But we had a lot of fun, that's the main point. :)

And so, my school starts tomorrow, so I guess I'll have to go bed earlier today.

" Rauhassa kastele minut kyynelillä"

I miss you.

So. This has been one hell of a weekend. A lot has happened, and nothing has happened. Anyway.

Friday: I visited my old achool with my friend, and met other friends and my old teachers, they even offered us some coffee! (Which I don't drink, but still.) From the school we went to my place, dad bought us some pizza! Glad he did, as we all were extremely hungry. From my place we went to Helsinki, as there was going to be "Night of arts".  The night went really well, A LOT OF people, and of course, loads, loads and again loads of drunk people. Except I wasn't drunk. Later we went to one of our friend from Espoo, se had her housewarming party that night also. Just that we came so late, that the party was actually already over. But we still still stayed there, as we were supposed to sleep there. Me and one of my friends stood up to 5 A.M just talking, talking and talking, while rest of the people slept.

Saturday: Nothing really big happened, just wandering around and chilling. I met some of my good friends.

Sunday: Not sure what is going to happen, except I'm going to go to coffee with my cousin. AND I'm going to cut my hair! I'm excited.

I want those times back. Because I miss you. I just can't see how it came to this.

Nonesense. I'm tired.

Well well! This has been a big day for me! I officially quit high school, and got place in vocational school! Ah, this is just so perfect. I'm so happy now. And my school starts on tuesday, so I have no school for 6 days.

Also weekend is going to be so good! Friday shall be party party, and so shall be saturday! Sunday I think is going to be more relaxing, as I'm going to meet my cousin, and I'm going to go to coffee with her. :-)
Oh! And I'm going to visit my old school on friday, with my friend. :-)

So, a lot is happening this now!

Love his voice.

I'm having a day off! And I listened to this one song again, and I think I fell in love with it. The story, is just so touching.

This song is the thing! It makes me nutzzzz! Lovelove.

Life's a bitch then you die.

This day has been somewhat a good day! And strange in some way.

We went to the forest, to pick mushrooms! I don't know why, but it was fun. We just wandered around the forest searching for mushrooms, and we actually found many. :-)

Also, I split up with my friends with another friend, and we went to this old house, where I have been also before. We went inside it, and also climped on it's roof, it was cool. :-P

And I kind of felt rejected today, seems like difference isn't appreciated everywhere.

Yayitsweekend!

Last hours in school were so restless! I just couldn't help it, but I laughed at everything, even if it was stupid.. I mean, I REALLY laughed at everything stupid.
But anyway, now I have some time to rest, and sleep my nights well. My friend will be coming over tonight, so I won't be alone rest of this day. :-) Tomorrow I'm going to one of my friends, and there will also be other people. (Our friends etc.)

And right now, I really have no idea what to do. I'm just sitting at the computer, listening to music, and doing literally nothing. Oh well, maybe I will make up something? Anyway, dinner is almost ready!

Feeling emotional... Listening to all these sweet, sweet songs I love with one of my friends.. ♥

Sigh. I knew it would come to this eventually. But I actually didn't except it would come this soon.

Anyway, that god I didn't get much homework today.

Tired... Should go to bed I think. And here's one good song for you again.
Good night!

I found 20€ on the ground today! Woop woop.

Anyway, had my first maths lesson today at school. And I think it's not too bad! The teacher is okay, but we'll see when it gets harder. :-)

I also happen to dislike busses... Always late, so you don't always know in which bus you should jump in, which could mean you're not going to the bus you should go in... Grr.

I. Totally. Love.

Hmm. I really do feel like the school isn't for me anymore. It's just way too boring etc.

But! What I feel I REALLY want to do, is music! Lately I've been so inspired about everything that's been going on around me, but the school is literally just in my way. It takes too much time, I really don't have time to write. But we'll see what happens.

Bought my school books today. Or, well dad bought them. So, tomorrow my school will actually start, lessons I mean.

And I still don't know if I can keep going on like this. I really don't like this feeling I have.

But guess you just have to hold on to the things you have, even if it's hard sometimes.

I really don't know if I have the strenght, or the will, to keep going on like this.

Exhaustion is taking its part in this.

And once again, what the fuck?

I've been thinking again so much lately... What if I can't forget you ever? I don't want to forget you, I'd still be with you if I could. I'm still waiting. I will wait as long as you want me to.

What if I can't forget you?
I'll burn your name into my throat.
I'll be the fire that'll catch you.
What's so good about picking up the pieces?
None of the colors ever light up anymore in this hole.

Dying my hair black again!

So. It was my first day in high school. Was pretty interesting. But nothing really big didn't happen yet today. But I met my class for the first time. I already knew few of the people, so it wasn't really a big deal, but it's of course always nice to meet new people! :) (And on my class is also one of my good friends, whom with I've been on the same class for last 11 years.)

As I said, nothing big happened today, tomorrow is going to be a little more important day. As we're going to hear stuff about our courses we're going to have, and which we're going to choose, so it shall be interesting. Also, I think I should sleep more than 4 hours, as I did last night. I really don't recommend it to anyone. :P

And again, here is a good song you all should listen! I'm also going to see them in about 2 months, so I'm really getting restless to see them. (They're touring with August Burns Red, A Day To Remember and Living With Lions on the Eastpart Antidote Tour.)

Mmmmh. It's been a nice night. Having friends over here. :-)

And by the way, this song is good.

You know. I'm pissed. PISSED. But when you really think, there is no right word to describe this feeling. Misery is pretty close, but no.

Fuck this fucking fuck shit.

Riiiiight. Last night was reaally good! It's just I happen to remember nothing from like 8-9 PM to like 3 AM? My mum had to come and pick me up, and take me home.

But anyways, thanks everyone for the great party! And there shall be more to come!

                                        Let's call it party tonight!

Why do I feel like this? This ain't fair.

Oh.. My... God. I guess my cousin has brainwashed me. We've been watching series called Totally Spies. I don't know wether it's good or not. But it's just addictive. I suggest you try it. :P

I'm on this episode now. And yes, I happen to realise I have no life while I'm staying at my cousin. :P

Listen. All I have to day is this.

Piercing #7.

So, I took a new piercing today! And it's septum! :-)

And here is a photo of it! (Yes, I do have few piercings already, as I happen to like them.) So, this is what happend today.

And tomorrow I'm planning to go to Helsinki to meet few people. Also it's going to be busy for the next few days, as I'm going to go to 2 parties, to have some good time with my friends, as we still have time, as summer is almost over, and schools will start in less than 2 weeks.

Greece.

So, AGAIN it has been a long while! But I'm back again! A lot of stuff has happened since last time I wrote!

Remember when I wrotr about going to Greece? The trip was very pleasant I must say! I enjoyed so much. But most of all, oh my god... The food! It's so good there! All i have to say is: GO THERE AND TASTE IT. Anyway., as one of the reason for some people to go abroad, is to sunbathe, I did that too. And what usually happens, or can happen, is to burn, I did burn myself. Not badly, but I still did. My shoulders burned, and my chets burned a little. So it wasn't a big problem.

Here's also some pictures from the trip.

                                       Our cousin, my little sister, my big sister and I in the night.

         We also enjoyed swimming in the pool. So here's my big sister, little sister, me and my mother.

                 But of course we also swam in the sea! (Me, little sister, dad and big sister.)

This is part of the village we stayed for the whole 2 weeks. It seems small, but believe me, there was a lot of things, including few incredible good restaurants! I loved it there.

And now few photos of me. It was really windy there, so there was no point in doing anything to your hair, 'cause the wind would've ruined the hair anyways. (Yes, I like to do things to my hair.)

So, now you know why I didn't post anything for so long (this post is almost week late, but don't mind. I'm lazy.) I really, really suggest this country to anyone who enjoys warmth and the sun, and most of all, the people there! They're really kind and talkative, or atleast most of them. I really would go there again anytime.

Anyway, this was my trip to Greece this summer!

Sooo. It's been a while again. Last time I spoke a little about going to Helsinki Pride. And I went there! It was so cool. There was a lot of people. I met some cool new people also! And those people have become nice friends to me also. :)

But nothing new big has happened. So I really don't know what about I should write. Except. I will be going to Greece in 6 days. Hope it's going to be nice trip. But I'm going to miss all of the people here. Especially my closest friends, and one guy.. And we're also going to stay there for two weeks.

Been little down for the last few days. Hope it's going away soon. I hate being sad. It just not me.

Anyway! I'll be probably writing more before I'm leaving to Greece.

And listen to this song. It's so fucking epic.

Midsummer

My midsummer was pretty interesting. I spent it with few of my friends. And of course, alcohol was included. We had so much fun. I actually can't even recall the last time when I've had so much fun in one night. I can't remember it all. But here's few funny things that we did:

Beer + Coca Cola + Ice Cream = Not good. Not even when you're drunk.
Bread + Butter + Ketchup = Good when you're drunk.
Shitloads of calling to people. And we even called 020202 for satans number, but damn it, we didn't get it. :(

Anyway. It was an awesome midsummer. Better than I thought it would be. (I expected it to be me sitting at the computer for the whole night at home.) But gladly it turned out this way.

And it's Helsinki Pride next weekend! I believe it's going to be cool. As from what I heard from last years Pride. Shame I didn't make it then. But that's why I must go next saturday!

But this should be enough. Time to run!

Summer #1

So the schools ended. And I actually made it high school. Anyway. It's time to tell you about how my summer has gone so far, so here we go;

I spent my first week of summer vacation at home. Just being with my family, chatting with friends, and watching movies and stuff. And I started to watch a new series, which my sister brought for me, and it's The L Word. And it happens to be one of my favourites at the moment.
Okay, anyways. Before schools ended, I met this cool, nice guy on the internet. We had been chatting for couple of weeks already, and we decided, to meet at last. We decided that I would go there on the next monday. So, the weekend came, and it was time to tell my parents about him, and that we had planned to see eachother on the next monday. Well, I guess you all know how parents react in this kind of situations, "Who is he?" "Where did you meet him?" "Have you seen him before?" "How old is he?" "What does he do?" , and all that. It took a while to tell them what was going on. And so, it went how it went. But they actually let me go there.
So, then came monday. The day I would meet you. I was excited. Like REALLY excited. Everything went well. Dad took me to the bus stop. Until I look to my wallet, and realise, I don't have all my money with me. There's no words to describe how mad and dissapointed I was. At myself of course. It was my mistake. Anyway, so I called dad, and he said that he would come pick me up, and he would be taking me to the next bus. So I went home, got my money. And he took me back to the bus-station. As ready as I could ever be. Getting more and more excited and nervous. And yeah, there was still 3 hours of train waiting for me. I got to the city, the train would be leaving in 10 minutes, good. I go in the train, there was like 5 people with me. Until there was 5 minutes left till the train would be leaving, more and more people came in. I was afraid that someone would come to me and tell me "Sorry, this is my place, would you like to move?". But actually no one came. I was one of those lucky people who got to sit on a seat. So I didn't have a ticket, 'cause I didn't have time at the train station, it was crowded. So, here comes the ticket seller. I told I was going to jyväskylä. She sold me the ticket... And then she tells me, I have to move, because I didn't have a ticket which allows me a seat. Oh my fucking god, I had to sit over 2 hours, on the trains floor. Anyway. Train change, I got my own seat. Thank god. Now, there was only like 30 minutes left until I'd arrive there. I arrived. Got out of the train. Didn't know where the hell I was. Didn't know what to do. So I just sat there, hoping I would see you, or you'd find me. And so, you found me, as you walked to me.. Oh my god, there is no words to describe the feeling. Or if there was, I wouldn't want to do it, 'cause the feeling was so awesome. So, there began our first meeting. And that's enough of it.
And so came tuesday. I was sitting in the train, thinking of the past ~24 hours. This time I got to sit on a seat for the first ~45 minutes. Until I had to change the train again. And so, I had to sit on the floor again. Listening to music, and just thinking what had happend. I was happy.
I arrived in Helsinki. I went to see when my bus would be leaving. I had enough time to go to the shop to buy me a drink. I went back to the busstop. Oh fuck me, there were some annoying extremely loud teenagers. Glad they didn't come to the same bus as me.
The next few days I spent at home again. And we also decided with my cousin, that I would be going to his place in the next few days. So I started packing, as I would be staying there atleast for a week. I went there. We had so much good time. We played, talked, listened to music, made food, went to the shop and a lot of more nice things that we usually do. And also one of my good friends came there. And so we continued to do all these things we had already done with my cousin. And of course, we stood up in the nights, and slept in the days. And our conversations, they were like real conversations. We spoke about almost everything. Anyway. I spent a week there. Our friends had invited us to come over, as one of our friends will be going to China as an exchange student. How cool is that?! So, we went to them. I saw some of my good friends whom I hadn't seen in a while. Especially Emilia. We decided to go for a coffee. So I actually spent like 30 minutes fully at my friends place, and few hours with Emilia. But I just totally needed to talk with her about everything, as I hadn't seen her in a long while. We went back to the friends place, and me, my cousin and our friend, decided to leave. Trip home was good, and bad. I spilt juice on my clothes, which I hadn't even used yet. And I also got little tired during those bustrips.
Anyway, my cousin came to my place. Here we watched more L Word, we got to the 2nd disc of season 5. (If someone hasn't watched that series, I suggest you do it.) And I also have spoken a lot to someone special lately, and I really enjoy talking with him. :)

But, so far, this is about all what has happened on my summer so far! I'll be posting stuff more often from now on. See ya all later!

So..

Guess I'm back! Though I still don't know what I should write here. And it has been a while since I last posted here. So, nothing much ne whas happened since last time. Except I took a new piercing, bridge. It's placed between your eyes, if someone doesn't know.

And so, schools are almost over. Can't wait to get to the holidays. Going to be a nice summer I guess. Or it should be, atleast when including the plans that I have made with my friends.

And we'll be going abroad also. In July. Hope the trip will go well.

But anyways, time to run!

~

Oh well.. I think I just totally lost my interest in this kind of blogging..
So, probably will delete this, or some. Or start over. But probably won't continue like this.

If there has been any readers already, thank you all. =)

Lazy weekend incoming.

Indeed, probably going to my cousin. We'll probably go to cinema, to watch Red Ridinghood movie. Hope it's worth watching. :3

Then we'll just go to his place. And hang out there. For the rest of the weekend... But usually we have so much fun, so nothing to worry about really.

And I'm at school now by the way. Did all I had to do in the first 2 hours, in 20 minutes. So, ehhh. I'll have some free time now. And I decided to blog some.

Anyways, time to go to break. ~

This is actually pretty much how I feel now.

This thursday has been fairly nice. Except for the morning, I felt like I just couldn't wake up. But ughhh, it's school day, so had no choice but to wake up.

Day at school was easy. And there was even some kind of orchestra at the school. For what I can recall, they played theme songs of Star Wars, and The Simpsons. Was kinda funny. And rest of the day was just wandering around ~

And I also spoke to my friends about piercings, and we decided, that I should take nipple piercing. Which I'm not sure yet, but the idea isn't too bad. Atleast I think it isn't.

And so far, at home, I havn't done much. Except I watched Scary Movie 3.

"Cindy? The TV is leaking!"
"Cindy, this bitch is messing up my floor!"

I just totally love sauna. It just relaxes me. Makes my head clear, and I always think deep stuff there. But this time, it just made me tired. So I'll be heading to bed shortly. ~

Mmmmh.

Hmm, interesting. I just started a new blog. I don't know what this is going to be about. But let's see. For now, I'll be telling about stuff that's going on, and posting some random stuff. ~